When I was smaller, my problems were also small. Or it seems meager now but at that time it was a situation of life and death (figuratively).
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| That'd be me with close to no problems in life yet looking like she has many |
For example, my problems were that I was too skinny, that my cheeseball packet got finished, that I lost a game of snakes and ladders (or any game in general), that I had to eat my not-so-favorite food. And on the contrary, my happiness lied in small things as well, like getting a new packet of cheeseballs, or getting a big chocolate bar, or winning a card game, or getting French fries or Maggi for dinner.
When I look back to those I remember how big of a drama queen I was and how such small problems bothered me. Most of my childhood pics are with me making an angry face (Reason varying). Although those were some pretty big issues for a 5-year-old. Gradually the problems got tougher.
During school, my problems were getting not-so-good scores on an exam which was never gonna matter in my future life, fighting with my best friend or getting a small area on the desk, or getting scolded by my teacher in front of the class for applying nail polish (I was once scolded by my principal for wearing a bit longer earrings that usual in school - now I wear thrice that size and there's no one to scold). But my happiness lied in scoring full marks in a math test, coming 1st in a running race, or in being the class monitor.
When I was getting my coaching for the JEE exam, I used to cry for getting fewer marks than everyone. My problems revolve around how many marks or how much I remember in my academics. My happiness lied in scoring highest in maths (although my chemistry and physics scores were underwater). I got happy when I knew the answer to a question the teacher asked. I got happy when I got appreciated for scoring well. I remember there was this test in my coaching classes, where I got negative marks in chemistry. How I cried that day! But I did have a happy moment when I topped in a surprise test of maths. Math was my forte back then.
Anyhow, in college, my problem is submitting my assignments on time.
I still haven't unlocked the next stage of problems yet!
Though I do imagine how my life will look like when I'll get old. I see myself fretting over cooking food for myself or getting groceries. Cleaning my home. Finishing a book - I don't want to lose this habit of mine even when I'm old. Finances. I have no idea. But maybe during those tough times, I know I'll be coming back to these blogs and will be reading and laughing at all these assumptions I had about older life.
But till then let me stress over my current problems and not worrying about them getting any bigger.
Tell me which problems you are struggling with now. Then, years later you can laugh too about the size of problems you had now!
Word of the Blog: Meager (lacking in quantity or quality)
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